Plastic Masquerade

Faking smiles to pass the time,
Pretending I’m okay,
Pretending I’m not a liar,
Pretending life was just as good before,
Pretending I’m in control.
Pretending what I pretend is true.
Faking my sanity more and more.

Faking laughter to make you stay,
Hoping you won’t leave,
Hoping I haven’t scared you off,
Hoping I’m almost done with an uphill climb,
Hoping I’ll find control,
Hoping it won’t hurt to fall,
Faking the words, “I’m not lonely.”

Faking love to find it true,
Leaving all I knew behind,
Leaving all my goals and dreams,
Leaving my failures wading within your wins,
Leaving my mind to find my heart,
Leaving my false hope to the children,
Faking my cockiness every day.

Faking that I know just where to start,
Ending when I’ve barely begun,
Ending what could have been more,
Ending the hurt and my haunting nightmares,
Ending the consequences I’ve dealt myself,
Ending my fight with daily life.
Faking that I’m okay.

No.

Don't say,
No no no,
You're not in the way,
Oh don't wish,
Your precious life away.
Keep going.
Keep striving,
You know there has to be
Something
Wait.

Don't say,
No no no,
You know you aren't in the way.
You know this
Attention,
And all the
Suspension
Is just to keep
Me around
A day longer.

Don't try
No no no,
I'm not playing this time
Oh just try
To breath, please just this time.
You're killing me,
Killing me,
Wearing me down,
Away till I'm gone.

Oh don't try,
No no no,
You know this lie,
Only is
Making
It worse.
Taking
My heart.
And I can't live
Without it.

Don't speak,
No no no,
Don't make me leave.
Just admit
Life's not the curse
You hold it to be.
Its not a tragedy.
Somehow you can't see,
The love inside you,
All around you.

Don't speak.
No.